forgiveness

I vented for a few moments emotionally. Not angrily as I was not angry, but as a hurt person because... well, yeah, I'm sure you read the previous entry.

Since then, there was a reply, then a DM, then text message exchange which I am in the middle of now as we try to work through differences. I suppose this is where forgiveness starts: willingness to put aside your own bruised feelings/ego/whatever and start talking through things so healing occurs.

Mostly because holding on to pain that I don't want is foolish and unneeded; if I am hurt, why would I continue to hold on to the pain and continue hurting when the route to my escape lies in front of me. Usually, something along the lines of "this is what happened and that hurt and I want that to (1) stop and (2) never happen again in that manner as long as I know you..."

Mind you, sometimes forgiveness isn't that easy and the circumstances may mean you'll never get to have that conversation. Even so, it's better to hold on to pain not a moment longer than you have to and then move on as soon as you can if for nothing else than your own sake.

At least, that's what I'm working on right now.